My heart was carved with curses of hurt and its flowers were withering dead
My soul was hurting as it was being tortured and crushed in the hands of my own self
My brain was drowning in the pool of sorrows that i had placed myself in
I was crying as every single tear would stream down my cheek and would burn my skin
The demons were inside and they were urging
They were trying to get out, trying to escape
I was trying so hard to conceal and keep them inside for i had put them there
I was trying so hard to not let them consume me
But i couldnt destroy what i had created i couldnt get rid of the black hole inside
the demons crushed me and conquered
They started to **** and **** and **** and **** and ****
I just couldn't help it i just wanted it to stop
I thought the mess in my heart would stay inside where it had always been
But the demons were fast enough for me to self distrust
And Just like a star that self destructs i exploded
The worries the sadness the pain consumed my body
My fingertips were tingling and my whole body felt it
The demons were out and they wouldn't stop
They kept stabbing and stabbing and stabbing and stabbing
And just like a dim star i faded away to the sound of my soul
The sound of it yelling and telling me to run away
Telling me to not stay where I'd explode and hurt every other day
Telling me to be happy and just ignore the horrible demons
But i couldn't do what it was telling me to because i didnt notice but i was the demon
I had kept the sadness and the greif inside for too long and it had built up to be something i couldn't contain
It being a part of me i couldn't control its power against my tortured self
I would try to run away from it but how could i run away from my own self
And when i couldn't find an escape and i just couldn't be happy anymore all i could do was fade away
Fading away to a new world leaving my body and my own soul behind
I faded away.
● a letter from the numb girl●