I'm not immortal...
my head aches from ache..
A sourceless cower
I sit inside my head...

not a tear...not a tear...
the fear subsided
for now a year...
and finally the conclusion is here...

I'm lost..I'm weary
I'm not as close, not nearly..
I'm farther than I started...
backtracked to nowhere

You were the last smile I remember...
the last place when we were together.
I knew who I was then...
but now I begin again...

I lost myself in you
Love, magic and blissful caress..
how could I compete...
a time beyond time..
ineffable, defying my breath...

Soon after, cold after...
the happily ever after
the laugher... died into tears..
and soon the tears..
dripped in the silence.

But the time never begun once more..
You walked and time followed
the shut, the ache..everything misplaced...

Now one year later, I sit rather jaded..
mystified at why I cannot seem to be...
Everything that was supposed to happen..
has turned me..
into nothing...
give me back to me.