that fizzy chemical
feeling
wraps itself around
my veins.
again. again.
not again.
i am full of blue smoke
and voracious wind voices.
i am full of melancholy
and still-born
dreams.
i miss you,
there, in the mirror.
you shine like
forgotten sun,
laugh like
terrific miniature
gods.
i am acetylene now.
i am neither human
nor beast. i return
to the ashes and ether
from whence I came.
i don’t belong here,
living as a fox among
the pheasants.