if i could i would write myself a father who was not too tall just enough so i could fit my head under his chin
and he would always have a smile for me even after a long day at work and the floor is still wet from where i mopped
he would hang drawings and report cards on the fridge and tell me he was proud of me even when i hadn’t done anything that day except remind myself it’s okay to just breathe
he would be an example of a father that i could write about and make it sound realistic because nothing would be made up and what i imagined a father should be and do
i would write him so he would want to be my father and he wouldn’t hate my mother or me
he would be kind and never yell at me or hit or throws things and he would just be there
this father i would write him so he would have found a way to go to my high school graduation and tell the people sitting next to him that i was his son with a smile on his face