I want a book to fall into. I want to be a part of someone else's torment A head congested with negativity and a distracting certainty of that which I cannot know for sure Is in itself a truth I want to tumble into pages Fall between the words and hang on to a question by the tip of Q's tail Conquer U, E, S, T, I, like monkey bars And slide myself through "O" down the rabbit hole Taking me far away to a land unlike this one Where a distressed and questioning mind are put at ease Where rabbits have pocket watches, cats grin, teacakes make you taller and smaller And boys still want you Forget the "N" because that would mean we've reached the end of an unanswerable question One I'm tired of asking.
I wrote this poem when I was going through a really rough time in my life (with a guy, of course). I was anxious and feeling claustrophobic in my own skin. I wanted to do anything to escape what I was feeling and I just remember wanting so desperately to be a part of someone elseโs story so that I would stop plaguing myself with these paralyzing questions that I didnโt have the capacity to answer.