why is it so
******* hard
for you to realise
that i’ll always be your
child, your blood
and that’s never going to change
just because the gender
i was assigned at birth
is different
than my real one
doesn’t mean
i’ll stop loving you
because you’re my dad
and i love you more than anything
i hate myself
so ******* much
i don’t think you
really know
that i wish i wasn’t like this
it’s not because i think it’s cool
or cute or a joke
i hate this body
i was born in
i want it to change
i know that
i’ll never really escape this
that you’ll always
see me as the little girl they told you i was
but i really
really
really
hate who i am
i would rather die
than stay trapped inside this body
i love you so much
i hope you know that
because you are everything to me
and i don’t want to lose you, too.