I've dealt with this for a long time
Ever since I was 13 years old
It was something I always did on my own
I struggled with talking to people
Because of the fear within me
Not one person knows how I truly feel
Trust was always the issue
But now I've accepted my demons
And the pain it ensues
One day I'll feel okay
Another day the world is crumbling at my feet
The burden I would leave on my family and friends
Is out of the question
I'm constantly afraid of how they would feel
Since I am the one who is meant to be the strongest
Right now I feel at my lowest
There are days when I feel confidence and glow
Most of the time now there's a hollowness to my soul
My greatest wish is to be able to speak of this
Out loud to those I love
Until then I shall use a different platform
Before I lose my sanity