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I set myself up when i think about what could’ve been or what it should’ve been, told myself a million times to not think about it and let it happen when it happens , you see it’s hard to follow through with that when your use to having what you want at the end but sometimes what you want isn’t want you need and what you need isn’t what you want so please help me feed the mind and let me know how to ease the need and desire to want what you can’t have , it’s the urge inside of me that needs to feed on what i seek and if i don’t get it i sit back and weep in the mist of defeat . So why should i retreat when my feet leads me to the feeding that i crave for but should not deep down desire for, what am i searching for