I’m not in pain, these aren’t sad words being expressed,
These are loving terms, a spoken vibration I never got to confess,
Let’s regress back to a time I never got to quest,
Before my dime ejected and never made it to nest,
I had no home, but I had a heart,
Every time I moved a story would start
I was good at saying bye, and every time a friend would cry, inside I’d fall apart,
I told myself, one day I’ll find a love,
I’ll fall inn love and she’ll convince me to stay,
We’d indulge in philosophy, talking about what’s possibly above,
And in her lap my head would lay,
She’d do that smile and I’d gasp out loud and in that moment a feeling would express the sound of safe,
My love… it hurt me when I found out you were seeing the same,
I’ve experienced you in dreams until you revealed your name,
In that moment everything changed,
Because you were real and this chase lead me to grave,
You sent me many pieces and just recent, it all came clear,
I’m sorry I was far away when you needed me near,
I’m sorry he got sick and placed intentions in fear,
I promise to finish what you started because you’re the reason I’m here,
My dear, it’s just not fair,
I begged for you, I trusted faith and that lead to you,
My dear, it’s just not fair,
They said you didn’t exist, that you were impossible, but you were just missed,
I’ll take psychedelics just to find you,
Study mathematics to guide you here with me,
I’ll increase my vibrations,
Explore dimensions and variations fearlessly…
It hurt me when I found out our opportunity was stripped,
I can’t lie, I had rage, I was truly ******,
I kept thinking of ways to fix this situation,
But the only answer available is patience, and waiting for you will be the reason I live,
Something told me that this reality wasn’t planned,
Because I kept searching for ways to commit suicide, and I’d reference Romeo and Juliet because their love is something I finally understand,
All my life, I’ve prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I finally found you,
And these are the words that never made it to ear,
I hope you’re able to hear,
My dear… my dear… you’re the reason I’m here,
I love you, I miss you, stay with me a little longer,
Lay with me, let your presence be known so that I am stronger,
My love, look at what the grave did,
Guided me to enlightenment so that I was able to see you,
My dear… we almost made it,
I’ll be counting down the days, embracing death because I’m excited to meet you…
My love…