when i can't sleep when i can't rest i think about all of the darkness in my head how much sunshine does it take to chase away a tornado?
i think about my real friends how they shine light in my life and the tornado slows down
i think about my fake friends how they hurt me how i have given my all to forget and the tornado picks up
i think about my future college, vet school it's a good dream, great life just not mine do i please everyone else or myself? the tornado plucks me off the ground
i think about what i'm afraid to admit i want i want to go pro i want to spend my winters in wellington my summers in michigan but that's selfish i'm pleasing myself but not everyone else the tornado flings me against the wall
i think about how i'm not good enough how i probably will never be good sufficient that i will not be one to live my fantasy i can't hurt everyone in my life like that
i think about why i don't want to hurt others but i'm perfectly okay with destroying myself
i think that this is scary and i think about how i run from my problems and i think about how i should just turn and run into the tornado