I know that danger still exists for you when you leave, and I understand the complexity of it all, especially with kids involved, but if you can leave, why haven't you already done so.

It never really ends no matter how many times he apologizes, it adds to the stress your kids have to face and these build up to adverse childhood experiences which more or less push them to drugs and addiction later in life, and turns some of them to abusers too. Believe me, you aren't doing them any favors by staying.

I hope you get the strength you need to finally leave, I hope that you can find it within you or at least reach out to people that can help.

But most of all, I hope that one day you will be happy, even though it doesn't look like it.

Remember, it's not your fault, it never was.

You are perfect and I Love you.
V.