I never said I was an easy man to love.
Most days I don't even like the skin I live in let alone love myself for it.
When I see you, you make the days bearable,
You make the face looking back in the mirror smile at all the flaws, the insecurities.
But you left...
You left me worse off than when you found me.
you were my home, not just four walls.
I had a full heart and a empty mind
Your touch was silk, hugs wrapped me like warm Linen, gentle and caring.
Now it's restless fighting with myself,
It's banging my hands on the table to stop from crying at 3am
Its Wondering what flaws did i have that you couldnt accept.
What did I do to push you away, what did my love do?
Was it too forthcoming with my anxiety? Was it waking up at 6am checking all the doors and windows to make sure you were safe?
Or..
Was it simply me loving you when you only liked the idea of not being alone...