of course i see you in every face,
in any and every place
you’re the first person i see in crowds
your face even appears above in the white clouds
you are permanently carved into the shadows behind my eyelids
i am only aware of what it feels like to be a desperate kid
only aware of being naive and being infatuated, agitated, deflated
so God, this is how it is to be?
forcing me to love a boy, who has no concern for me?
you taunt me day and night
you haunt me in sun rise and moon light
you appear every time i blink,
and i tell my self not to sink, not to think
to think of you at least once a day
as if my brain needs a fix of you, child’s play
you refuse to even breathe in my direction,
yet i see you everywhere in glossy reflections
always following me through the journeys i make
you make me heart ache,
you make my heart break,
theres too much at stake
i don’t want to be this obsessed with you
with or without you, I’m blue,
a pathetic person who is covered head to toe,
overflowed with the color of cold lips,
of veins, and frozen fingertips
i know our futures are not intertwined
i know you are far too good to me and for me, bear that in mind, i know you'll decline
you will forever live in my head only as the “what if”
but i will continue loving you in ink and hieroglyphs
six years of my wavering loyalty and lips
hoping one day we’d align, an eclipse
but hoping won’t get me far
you were a star i could look at from afar,
a place i could dream of the bizarre
you were the thing that made life worth living for
but i have to stop myself from thinking of you once more,
i need to leave everything in the before,
and finally let myself soar.