And it gets worse
People start to get angry with me.
They tell me,
You are not trying.
They bombard me with wise words
which others have spoken or written.
They tell me to snap out of it.
Or to look within myself.
To change my energy.
Cry out to the Lord.

And do you know the only way I really get fixed?
The only way,
The way that someone who doesn’t know how to love themselves gets to be able to love themselves,
Is by being given,
over and over again,
the unconditional love they didn’t have.

However, Do you see what I'm offering you?
It is the challenge of finding a way to love unconditionally.
To give unconditionally.
To find in yourself all the blocks to unconditional love
which the difficult personality that I am forces you to discover.

This never was about me.
This never was about the frustration of the bottomless pit.
This was never about you learning wonderful techniques that you could offer to loved ones in order for them to be like you.
It was always about you.
I've already got this.
I knew what I was doing.
I have this.
My higher self is looking on,
smiling,
and nodding at the absolutely brilliant job I am doing of playing out my role.
My bottomless pit role.

Do you get it now?
Even a little?
The enormity of this gift?

The challenge is unconditional love.
The opportunity is unconditional love.
The journey is back to unconditional love.
Do you catch the energy of that,
the excitement of it,
the power of it?
Don’t you just love the way this all works?

Oh, and if you happen to be the me, thank you!
There is much love and appreciation for you here.
We stand in awe.