I pin point a clear image of myself
And the love I know I deserve
I found a spot within which to spot
I didn't move until it was time
To bar hop.

I live a bougie glamorous life
I worry about how I appear
I worry about being behind
I worry about every ounce of it.

There has been an indescribable darkness lately
Forever in those transitional times
Longing for the sun to come
And stay.

I was just starting to feel
That little bit of contentment
I fear you want the cake
And wanna eat it too.

But what does it really matter
I ask myself
Returning to my cool girl
Looking up at the mountainous mountain syndrome
I try to explain out loud how it played out
In all the multi layered colorful fog
That frequently surrounds
Us millennials.