old obsessive habits are beginning to unearth themselves and it takes all of me not to scream at the moon or the sun for cursing me i didn't know it was possible to feel this way since him but i am already planning living room layouts and vacations and trying to guess your phone password and wondering if your old "roommate" you are still friends with ever took up the spot on your mattress that i now rest in one night a week i'm worried if we change it to 2 nights a week you'll get tired of me faster
the thing is: i am never not worried and i can't figure out what that says about us or you or me
i haven't written since february because the noise keeps getting louder and it has gotten harder to pick the words out of the static not that i would ever blame you, obvously