I am not scared of leaves the ground will be littered but the chill i fear the wind of change the coming months carry
i fear the next season of life and love loss and new beginnings departures from what i know what i find comforting
faces i find familiar love that is easy warmth that i will try and recreate in a future i find bitter
i resist change i continue to forget all that is coming all i must accept
i live now as present as i can be
i pretend i control my life that i am the ultimate decider of my fate
but when i close my eyes settle between the sheets so warm familiar
i am wrenched from my reverie the nest i have made in my covers is only sheets and blankets
nothing can protect me from the coming time
so i will sit and wait decidedly oblivious to tomorrow focused on today the life of the minutes ahead watching them expire and turn into the hours i dread
i will learn not to fight it acceptance is a calm visage