I am stuck in between ***** it all let me quit and just die
And .....
hold on... maybe your big break is next door, in your next step or right around the corner
every body has everything from a good job to a loving boy friend and family....
if we are all deserving of that why do I not have any of it.

Maybe the one that supplies happiness often stops at the same number every day and starts all over every morning forgetting that there are more people down at this end.
I do not know if I can say that I am sad, depressed or just done.

I just want to be happy for along time too
for things to work out for a long time too
is that too much to ask for from a  universe and God that blesses everyone but me.

Give me a break already.