You will never see this note because you decided to take your life. I guess you didn't consider your children and your wife.
Okay maybe you weren't married and you live on your own..... I'm not claiming to understand.....how it feels to sit with a gun in your hand.
What i do know is this....you have effected many people with this choice you have made. There are people crying and the question is "Why did they do this?....it wasn't their time to die."
What do I tell the kids who found you lying there?....blood splattered on the wall. The note neatly placed on the side of the bed....your last words....I decided to end it right here...I love you all.
What kind of love is that? I'm attending a funeral for a person i thought I knew.....evidently I didn't have a clue. What was going on in your life that made you snap?
I'm upset with you because you didn't say a word to me.....this could have taken a different turn. Did you think about how difficult it will be for the children to learn?
I have them in my class...they are present in body, but their mind isn't there. They have a far away look ....just staring into the air. At times there are angry so they yell and curse....I had a few who did something worse. The pictures they draw are unnerving and disturbing....and in each one .....there is always a picture of you and that gun.
I'm praying that they get the help they need....they are wounded deeply, but you can't see them bleed. A void has been left in the family and their hearts.......you took your life before you had a chance to start.
I'm going to say something God said to me when i was thinking about taking my life....I was going through a divorce ....separated from my wife. My daughter I was unable to see....
At my wits end I heard God say..."How can you take something that doesn't belong to you?" "I died to set you free.""Who have you died for?" "I love you." after that he said nothing more. The voice wasn't loud it was quite low and was filled with love.
I just wanted you to know how much we are hurting....all we have are pictures and candles burning in memory of you.....I wish you were here.....and I wouldn't have to cry so much......you were so warm....but now you are cold to the touch.
I'm upset and disappointed that you took this way out instead of talking to me.....or anyone. What about your mother? She no longer has a son to call and say "hey....Mom." That's all she needed to hear....now there's only silence in her ear.....and pain in her heart.
I wish you had of considered her at the start. Well this is the end.
Sincerely .......please sign here
A few facts about suicide:
Suicide: Intentionally taking one's own life.
Suicide Risk Factors: Major Depression ,Bipolar Disorder, Schizophrenia
A suicidal person may be dealing with stressors such as:
An impending separation or divorce.
****** identity issues.
Losing a job.
Chronic pain.
A serious illness.
Financial crisis.
A suicidal person might be feeling or thinking:
Sad, Insecure, Humiliated, Hopeless, Worthless
The World Health Organization(WHO)reports that every year, an estimated 900,000 people die by committing suicide. This represents one death every 40 seconds.
Worldwide, suicide ranks among the three leading causes of death among those ages 15-44 years and is the 10th leading cause of death up from (11th in 2005) for all ages.
Men die much more often by means of suicide than women.
men are more likely to use violent methods
Women suffer from depression twice as much as men. 2:1 ratio is inclusive of racial, ethnic background
A woman takes her life every 90 minutes in the US....A pattern that has hel for over a hundred years.
A woman attempts suicide every 78 seconds. Women use more fail prone methods such as overdosing on medications.
Think before you decide to die.....consider the tears that will fall from the family's eyes.