when the photographs magnify the good times with the worst when they smear and blur and wobble and it's too hard to see sepia for what it was for what it's worth hold those snapshots craddle, squeeze, caress like babies like a dying woman's hand like shadows of a past reality let the dams break let the bawls rock you to sleep or to insanity whichever comes most naturally cheeks will tattle via burst blood-vessels eyelids may be swollen for sunrises to come your voice, gone but it won't matter no, not as you wonder how many people have wept themselves to death?
i wrote this at fifteen. should i be ashamed to say i can still relate to it?