Pain is my only reminder that I'm still alive.

I lie awake most nights...
Hold myself..
And..
Cry.

What else would you have me do?
I'm numb.
Its been months.
And my heart is still so broken.
I've asked God many nights.
Why do I still love him?
Why...
Why...
And please take away these feelings inside.

But each day passes and God never answers.
The agony and sorrow I feel is so ******* crippling...


Yea, this must be Hell.