"just undress here, and put on this gown" i stripped myself bare soul on display i put on the flimsy blue material my back peeking through the slits
im led to a bed and suddenly im being pushed away away from my mother away from everyone
they didnt even let me kiss her goodbye
im wheeled through metal doors everything reeks of bleach the type of squeaky clean that burns your nose
we stop a pass is fumbled with "surgical hall: authorised personnel only" the light goes green "access granted"
the doors hit my bed with a bang as i am pushed through them blinded by the bright lights 4 of them, surrounding a table
a 'bed' but really just a thin mattress propped onto a high metal table
there are people in green robes with masks covering all but their eyes they stand, waiting
im laid down and suddenly i feel a strap across my legs across my torso "its just so you don't move around during the surgery"
i nod, silent my heart in my mouth my hand is grabbed and i see a needle
"this will hurt okay?, i close my eyes as they try to locate my vein nope, again i **** a breath in as i feel metal in skin an iv drip hooked to a clear drug
my dressing gown is fondled with my chest bare i feel the cold tip of a marker a hand tracing x marks the spot, right?
my head feels light and i feel fear in my bones i think of your face i think of you, red
suddenly there is someone above me "breathe in deep" a mask is lowered onto my face in slo-mo it seems; probably just my mind playing tricks on me
i breathe in at first everything is fine then it starts to burn the air flow changes anaesthetia it burns my nose i don't want to breathe it hurts but i must
i think of you and i inhale i feel a tear escaping either sides of my eyes
i see a nurse notice and i hear her voice, fading "its okay" my vision goes black