Why can't you just let go of all fear and thoughts holding you back from what you crave and seek the most? The very thing that you've been longing for that has entered your life a little while back and still loves everything that is YOU? She only wants the best for you.. Even if it means your happiness doesn't include her.
You're such a prize to behold. You're her favorite word, her favorite thought and memory, and the dream she goes back to every night.
When she thinks all is lost, the thought of you and the many remarkable things about you remind her why she should keep going. She would fight for you and unconditionally love you day through night.
Your absence is never easy for her. Every second away from you continuously causes her heart to break and bury itself into the ground. The longer you two keep distant, the more it will hurt. The memory of you starts to fade after a while. All there is to remember you by is the happiness she feels when she thinks about you, the love she has.
No matter how fearful you are, take that bold move and show her your appreciation for everything she's done. She deserves so much for everything she sacrifices. And it's all for you.
She is protective of you as a mother is protective of her children. She imagines you in horrible tragedies and always imagines herself fighting to see if you're alright in the end.
That's all she wants.
She wants you to be alright.. more than alright.
Knowing you are happy and well will make loving you worth while.
She is the brave, empathetic and creative person you only wish you could be.
That last line I either cut out or keep when I share it with people (depending on who I show it to). I do that with a lot of the things I write because you never know how someone is going to react.