I have learned growing up to never let any man take advantage of me
I have always tried to follow this advice fully knowing that following this advice is the safe thing to do and the right thing to do
Until one fateful day.
Why can't women walk alone at night anymore?
The silence of him attacking me, the silence of him ripping off my clothes and taking advantage of me, the silence of him enjoying every second, has been the most loudest noise I have ever heard
The noise and sight and his touch can't go away
No matter how many showers I take
No matter how loud I play my music
In the moment and for the rest of my life, I feel less than the trash in the garbage bin
It felt as though all my future, my self love, my dignity, my dreams all went away when he pulled up his pants and left me for dead.