I look in the mirror

it swirls
swivels
and shines
but
it starts to dampen
darken
deepen
and die

in one million perfect shatters
in one million perfectly falls
it perfectly drops
upon the one million perfect walls

it terribly shapes back
it terribly comes together
it terribly reconnects
and i don't know why it bothers

i look into the mirror and this is what i see

i am drenched in black water
i am drenched in young age
i am filled with anger
i am engulfed in rage

for within each piece i see a crack
a flaw
within each piece i see nothing at all

there are millions of pieces
which my heart has been broken into
none of which i am able to find
none that it belongs to

i don't know what to do anymore
all hope is gone
the time has come
to sing my song

i lift my fists
i smash the glass
i scream in rage
i scream my breaths to my last

i am a cast out
my life is gone
im someone else
i am something wrong
im alone on the street
ive had nothing to eat
i hurt all over
i drop to the floor
i scream in pain
i cant take this any longer

so i take a piece of myself
i plunge it into my heart
followed by the rest
tearing my body apart

as each piece of myself breaks inside
as each piece shatters and dies
as the darkness surrounds me
the mirror is gone
because it has nothing to show
it has nothing to see
i can finally be
forever free