Mar 2018
BURNING
My feelings are strange. Idk if it's love or anger. Either way I'm stuck like a baby in a manger. And like that baby i have a lot of growing to do and lot's to learn. But right now i feel a burn. A burn inside like I've never felt before. I want to know. Will it change into gold or will it change to ash? It's still burning. I'm still scared of what I'll become. Right now i trust you. But I'm afraid that I'll be hurt again like from the women before you. I see you with him. Yet you're with me. It's all happening like before. It's like deja vu. The burning. It's getting stronger now. I see her laugh with him. Now my hope is falling down. For once i wasn't alone. But now that it's all happening over again i could never feel more alone. My heart is a heart of stone. You throw it hard enough it'll break even the hardest of bone. It's how I'm feeling. I want the pain to end. I don't want to give up. I've never felt love like this before. But the pain is everlasting. Idk if it's worth it. But for now i push on. I push through the pain.
She's still by him. Now that it continues i feel so much shame. Now that it continues the burning is a searing flame. I feel myself burning away. I want to isolate myself every day. I want to sleep all the time. I wish it was eternal. It's the only time and place I truly feel inner peace. Please forgive me when I'm crabby and angry. I'm burning inside. Just know I'm still pushing forward. I'm still a nice guy. Don't let my kindness fool you. I'm in pain. So stay happy and lift eachother up. Because i want to be truly happy too. It's all i have left to gain from the stain of my burning pain.
She chose him. My insides are burning so much now they feel like ashes. Every moment of every day I want to give up and die away. People continue to ask me what's wrong. But they don't understand I've already told them everything. Now I don't know what to say. But just know I haven't given up. I've decided that I'm here to stay. I know sometimes I feel down and I find myself listening to the song “How to Save a Life by The Fray”. Still here I am today. I've decided to change. I got tired of trying to find the one. Instead I decided to try and be the one. So follow my lead. I’ve planted the seed for you to follow me on this path to succeed.
-ERIC TOLLEFSON
My feelings are strange. Idk if it's love or anger. Either way I'm stuck like a baby in a manger. And like that baby i have a lot of growing to do and lot's to learn. But right now i feel a burn. A burn inside like I've never felt before. I want to know. Will it change into gold or will it change to ash? It's still burning. I'm still scared of what I'll become. Right now i trust you. But I'm afraid that I'll be hurt again like from the women before you. I see you with him. Yet you're with me. It's all happening like before. It's like deja vu. The burning. It's getting stronger now. I see her laugh with him. Now my hope is falling down. For once i wasn't alone. But now that it's all happening over again i could never feel more alone. My heart is a heart of stone. You throw it hard enough it'll break even the hardest of bone. It's how I'm feeling. I want the pain to end. I don't want to give up. I've never felt love like this before. But the pain is everlasting. Idk if it's worth it. But for now i push on. I push through the pain.
She's still by him. Now that it continues i feel so much shame. Now that it continues the burning is a searing flame. I feel myself burning away. I want to isolate myself every day. I want to sleep all the time. I wish it was eternal. It's the only time and place I truly feel inner peace. Please forgive me when I'm crabby and angry. I'm burning inside. Just know I'm still pushing forward. I'm still a nice guy. Don't let my kindness fool you. I'm in pain. So stay happy and lift eachother up. Because i want to be truly happy too. It's all i have left to gain from the stain of my burning pain.
She chose him. My insides are burning so much now they feel like ashes. Every moment of every day I want to give up and die away. People continue to ask me what's wrong. But they don't understand I've already told them everything. Now I don't know what to say. But just know I haven't given up. I've decided that I'm here to stay. I know sometimes I feel down and I find myself listening to the song “How to Save a Life by The Fray”. Still here I am today. I've decided to change. I got tired of trying to find the one. Instead I decided to try and be the one. So follow my lead. I’ve planted the seed for you to follow me on this path to succeed.
-ERIC TOLLEFSON
This was made because my ex-fiance cheated on me.
