You don't know me & its not your fault.
'Cause I console me and that **** aint hot.
I really love you but the **** I did negated that.
I never have regrets but I know I would take it back.
I didn't mean it; it was words; it didn't mean a thing.
I can't express of all the feelings and the joy you bring.
Stupid decisions lost my luxury and I'm aware.
Things you witnessed formed a vision that I just don't care.

Lemme let you know why I got twinkles in my eyes.
Its not because of my own feelings; I put those aside.
I swore I'd never hurt you. and I said my word is bond.
I know I did & now I'm numb; & don't think I'll move on.
I'd do anything to make you understand what's true.
I just want it to be love between just me & you.
I know the things I did would contradict my every word.
But if you read it over, everything just sounds absurd.

You the only one I love and care about right now.
Trying to explain the stupid **** but don't know how.
I really dreaded that this day right here was soon to come.
It was all a front; but I know where you're coming from.
You said that I'm a sneaky liar & that **** aint true.
I didn't lie when I said I'd do anything for you.
It hurts to know that I just lost something that was so good.
I'd go back in time and change what I did if I could.

I hate to think about you; just being real.
It hurts so ******* bad how all this **** has made me feel.