Essence drowns my flesh
I felt the wind blow
The days weren’t mine
I would run out of my mind
Another night to dread
Yet I’m alive
But  I cant make it to far
I have some how lost my way
I once was naïve
But the past clutch’s me refusing to release
I pray on my knees the beads among my fingers
I start to bleed
Begging for deliverance  praying for me
Why so lost ? Yet not found
I don’t even recognize a sound
Could I just go and have my sins washed away ?
I just want to breathe out then in
I want to forget
That sorrow destroys all that I am
Should I stay silent to protect him?
But I desire in the middle of the night
A man to touch me until all is forgot
Heaven is fantasized
Once delicate nothing left for me
Strength you acquire when you need  
The time is limited when you grieve