I want to scream
And yell
And knock **** over
And throw stuff
And punch things
I want to be done
I want to stab myself in the chest
Drown myself in *****
Drive off the side of a mountain
Take every single pill in this ******* house
A house I can't even afford anymore
I just want this to stop
I want it to be over
I'm praying to a god I don't believe in
To take me away from this place
My skin is crawling
My blood is boiling
Tears are welling up in my eyes
How can I continue like this?
How can I bring myself to wake up?
To go to a job I probably won't keep?
I'm nothing
I'm no one
I'm a punching bag
filled with tears and blood
My life does not matter
Nothing matters