Things tired teenagers do, aside from the aforementioned stereotypes awkwardly assigned to the not-yet-adult generation:
1. Wait. Wait, lonesome for dreams when not sleeping. Lonesome for dreams of purpose, because there are still dreams of "what I want to be" in these years, but more so fear of how to get there;
2. Listen. Listen to the sounds of outside weather, of sleeping family members. Listen to thoughts, anxiety and responsibilities, memes and song lyrics, words they haven't formed yet and words that don't exist yet;
One of the thoughts is always "I should". "I should be asleep", "I should work harder", "I shouldn't try so hard", "I should keep climbing, life is uphill, but I feel like I'm slipping". "I should sleep".
"I'll sleep, soon."
3. Run free through open mind fields of creativity and realizations. It is when you are growing up, growing smarts like leaves, and still young that the world is truly your oyster; a teenager knows well enough that an oyster looks like an oyster does in its rough, brown shell, but still possesses the fascination and inexperience to widen their eyes in surprise at the sight of a pearl.
Teenage brains are like sponges; they absorb everything. But sponges are soft, flexible, squeezable, and can sop up all the world's mess, changing color as to absorb the spill.
4. Laugh. Make self-deprecating jokes. Dive into confusing, humorous, daunting pools of internet information, tweets of terror, memes of celebrities, photos of death, all the information and laughs and secondhand trauma a person never asked for, that a teenager has grown into.
4. Wish that sleep would come as easy as in days past. Wish that the world were as simple as it in the past. Complications make a person lose focus, but what is a person to focus on in an uncomplicated world?
Wish harder for something to become while the body finally gets its wish of sleep.
It is quarter to 1 AM as I write this. Decided to put into words the feelings the roller coaster that is staying up late.