I searched for you between the cracks of dawn and dusk, riding the river streams, flying through the clouds, scaling the daunting mountains, hoping to catch a glimpse of you -- hoping you would catch a glimpse of me.
I surfed the wind into coffee shops, bars, house parties and felt myself falling into the arms of beautiful and treacherous men with heartbeats that slowed down when the music of the night faded into the morning.
I searched for you within ageing class photos, within high school memories of crooked smirks and cologne of boys whose bodies I've dreamt of knowing but never reached my grasp out to in fear that they wouldn't hold on.
I searched for love in the bounties of nature and time, in what could have been and what was, in who he is and who he could be, but never have I searched for love where it should be brightest: within the hollows of my lonely self.