Every song I listen to,

Reminds me of you.

Why is this so challenging for me to do?

Why can’t I get you out of my thoughts?

Always on the run.

Why do you have to haunt me in my dreams?

When in reality, it doesn’t mean a thing.

Why do I still cry silent tears throughout the night and day?

We’ve both ****** up in the past.

This shouldn’t be so hard.

My heart needs a permanent cast.

My guardian angel played the wrong card.

On the cold hard floor I lay.

Only if you had stayed.

Now you are upset and mad.

I don’t blame you.

But I cannot tame the beast inside.

Struggling for so long.

Against so many ******* odds.

And all this time,

Cuddling with my demons.

Getting to know each of them.

Personally.

But that doesn’t define who I am.

So much time has past.

But still feels as though it has just begun.

The downward spiral,

That seems to never end.

I am completely done.

Only one has the power to mend.

The broken and shattered heart within.

Only to be showered with bitter words.

You all know that I am no quitter.

All my demons,

flutter around inside,

Like hellish little birds.

And now all I have to do,

is mutter useless words.

That will never be heard.