A night filled with dreams of love
It was like you were almost there
But then I awaken to loneliness
Warm hearts now iced with despair

These night are the hardest
They start out Heaven built
But always end with me in tears
Filled with remorse and guilt

How can I have been so stupid
I can honestly say.
To **** all trust and love
To drive you away.

They say with age comes wisdom
Yet I do not seem to ever learn
I continue to hurt the ones i love
For which my soul will forever burn

My battle with addiction
My battles within my head
Have taken everything for me
And left me for dead.

The guy with so much potential
Intelligent , charismatic an incredible heart
Yet a head filled with demons
Dooming me from the start.

God heals all hearts
He can take away our pain
But what does he do
with a ****** up brain.

A half century has passed
My life should be at its best
But that again is just a dream i awaken from
Heart again ripped from chest.

Destined to be alone
My heart to not share
Thank you brain
For this cross I will always bare.