All that I want to say
it doesn't make sense
does it?
Nothing reflects and it doesn't show correctly
but it doesn't matter I guess
nobody ever makes sense
and nobody ever listens
hardly anyone at all
The yelling and the screaming
it doesn't hurt
I am used to it
I wanted to
I wanted to
I wanted to scream
I wanted to tell you that I was hurting
but I couldn't
I had to fight with everything in me
just to bite my tongue
and to hold back all the tears
I wanted to say goodbye
and do it without saying it
but I couldn't
and I tried running
alas, I couldn't leave you behind
and I wanted to die
on that day
the day that everything had changed
it all became nothing
meaningless words
meaningless memories
of a family that used to be
but now can never be
not how it used to be
and it all never makes sense
it all just dies like yesterday
but it lives on like an insult that never leaves your brain
and that's the saddest part of it
the fact that pain stays
and happiness fades