Feb 2018
2018
I gained merely two Kg, the people I considered friends looked at me and said “If you keep doing this you’re going to be fat”, he laughed
The other said “I see you’re on the road to obesity” he smiled.
I only weigh 48 kg.
So I wonder, how long will my insecurities get to me, how long will I break and crumble and stop eating and overwork myself at the gym?
How long will my heart be anorexic and my mind bulimic.
How long till this nervosa be one with me?
Answer: it already happened.
I gained merely two Kg, the people I considered friends looked at me and said “If you keep doing this you’re going to be fat”, he laughed
The other said “I see you’re on the road to obesity” he smiled.
I only weigh 48 kg.
So I wonder, how long will my insecurities get to me, how long will I break and crumble and stop eating and overwork myself at the gym?
How long will my heart be anorexic and my mind bulimic.
How long till this nervosa be one with me?
Answer: it already happened.
I don’t think people understand how hurtful their comments are. My entire life I’ve been trying to be skinny or be what people think is appropriate and for once I’m happy, I’m healthy but it’s not good enough. It ******* hurts, I still wear the same sizes but I’m on the road to obesity? I’m too fat? **** those people, I can’t eat without their words lingering, I just don’t want this, I hate this because now I need to do a double take of how I am.
