I don't know how I feel
My stomach nervous screams
I'm calm

My thoughts and feelings feel so far away
Out of reach
I try grab them summon them back
But my clawing fluster encourages blindness to grow

How do I feel
You've locked me away from my emotions
We can't see
Only you
Do this to them

Are they so awful they refuse reach ?
Or so sweet, another form
Of my bruised thighs, colliding head
Will I unlock my happiness
With this understanding
And so
It need be a challenge

Happy or sad
When you reach me
you wake me to both
Neither
Maybe I am in denial
I don't want to hate you
but I know I do
Desire's triumph and so
Prevention of realisation is
Numbing

FEEL FEEL ME FEEL SOMETHING
PLEASE

I know you'd grab me but
I don't know how I would respond
It's what I want not need
Or what I need not want
Which are you ?

W
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Always waiting for your hands
To reach your tongue

So shine to me,
From your vibrant pulse of stars

And in the morning
Swallow me whole in your
Night sky eyes
And let them guide
Me home