ill admit
i had way too much to drink
but i begged you
i said no
i even used my manners
and said please
more than once

ill admit
i also didnt stop you
but i trusted you
and i realize now
that didn't mean much of anything
at least not to you

i bit through the skin on my knuckles
as water ran down my back
and you dug your lips into my neck
i imagined myself somewhere in Oregon
to forget the pain of you
to be quiet
for you

i still wonder if you heard me crying
or just disregarded it
because by the morning
when i wiped the blood from between my legs
you reminded me i wanted it

and although you took from me
you did not keep