How much is my life worth in the eye of myself?
How do I speak when my heart won't allow the words to leave my mouth?
How do you look in the mirror when you **** an angel’s heart?
How do you keep lying to me when you know it wasn't true from the start?
I'm so confused about this crazy world that I'm in
I search for answers in the people who I'm around but I'm starting to think they don't get it
I know that last thought was long winded
But that's just how long my thoughts stretch in my mind through the day
Been talking to a reverend lately and she just telling me to pray
Well excuse me God but sometimes I wonder if he listens
I know he there cause I felt him before
But lately it's been different
I don't know if I can feel anymore
I feel numb and hurt at the same time
I guess my emotions have beaten me till I'm blue
****** and bruised on the inside but clean cut on the outer
Everyone wears a mask to hide what they find ugly
I wish I could see the beauty in the imperfections
I guess it's the fault in my stars
The smudge on the heart
Pureness has left my soul and I don't think it's coming back
Running away from my problems until the skin on my heel tears
Fighting with myself until my knuckles bleed
I can't get over all my evil and sinful deeds
A born sinner is what I am
An perfect being is what I'm not  
Nostalgia in my mind when I think of home
When I think about everything I've been through…..
And the fact that I'm still standing……
The only thing that's left…..
Is my mind……
Blown.