My world is falling, crumbling apart, life is meaningless & that's just the start My hearts so sore, I can feel it breaking & I swear to god it leaves me shaking Late at night till early in the morning, lying in bed eyes wide open. Didn't sleep last night, like all the others, instead I just lie crying in the covers Quick, wipe away all the tears before they come near. Must hide this depression & the feelings of fear. For all they know, I'm happy & always smiling, but deep inside my soul is dying I can feel it rotting, it wants to scream, but I won't let it... not for the time being I can never tell them how I feel because the happiness I wear to them is real For them to hear that I wish I was dead……. it would **** them, they'd be filled with dread So I'll try my best not to be selfish, I'll keep my secret hidden & just let them rest but god I can't take it much longer... I'll probably be dead before they even wonder. Sometimes I just can’t escape the demons inside. How can I tell about the constant war inside? Everyone would disbelieve in what I say. Unable to contain what I feel. They all say that this isn’t real. How could they, how could they ever say that they understand, Understand how I feel? What can I do, to suppress the pain?