Why am I so scared of dying alone?
It gets me no closer to finding a home.
I guess I just have too many emotions.
Dig deeper, I go almost as deep as the ocean.
I’ve been spending today trying not to cry.
But I can’t help but think about that look in your eyes.
What did I do to deserve you in my life?
I find myself wanting to feel the blade of the knife.
Oh god what I would do if you would give me the time of day.
I know I ****** up, I just wish you would stay.
But as I try to move on, I’ll try not to think about the fact that you’re gone.
And I’ll try my best to be strong, as I try to be okay and maybe one day move on.