Oh Lord, it seems to me, You are a God of pain without which some people say there is no gain. There is only so much that we creatures can bear and it’s sometimes I wonder if You really do care.
Throughout the world You’re generally loved, hated or feared and there are certain times when You are very strongly jeered. Most people have a hard time making up their mind about You because of the trials and tribulations that You put them through.
It seems strange and true to say that with Your almighty nature You somewhat force people to bend to Your imposing stature. To impress on them that You’re the Only One they should please You have to prepare and teach them all how Your Will to appease.
Is it because of You’re being Immortal and All-knowing and we are Your heirs that You subject us all to such rigorous training to overcome illusion’s snares? One only has to reflect on the lives of Your so-called True Sons of the past to realize the suffering and attainment their example on humanity has cast.
If I sound to be a little cynical towards You and seem to complain how could You be so insensitive and not help me get rid of my pain? Though ignorant as I am to One Who is great as You’re made out to be please show a little more compassion to those who are helpless like me.
As life in this world demands so much of our time is it forgetfulness of Thee that You consider a crime?! This whole world is a cruel proving ground to one higher above and yet it has been spoken or written that You are a God of love!
If I don’t seem to see the bigger picture now of what really goes on then You’re held responsible for allowing this situation to drag on. And even though You have given Teachers to show people the way the illusion is still so strong that most get caught and lost in the fray.
Remaining a while here where they play out either minor or major roles being only a matter of time before they too become aware of their souls. When after much disappointment and suffering that You seem to mete out they gradually realize by pain that this world is not what life is only about.
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Private Collection - written over ten years ago while undergoing physical pain due to an injury.