Cross my heart and fully hope to die, Everything about me is a lie. We can teach one another how to soar high, But everything you know about me is a lie. Cross my heart… The real truth… All I ever wanted was somebody to love me All I ever prayed for was my guardian all free I don’t need or even want any of this stuff I don’t need to do or say crazy things Cross my heart… The real truth… God’s honest truth, I confess I am not like you; I’m selfish enough to ice out emotions that last And sometimes I get wrapped up in loathing My legs are busted up, scratched, and bruised from furniture I’ve never experienced any of the magical or adventurous movie things Cross my heart… The real truth… I’m only cold because it’s the only way I know I only act because it hurts way too much to think I get wild all the time because I’ve got nothing to lose I look ragged because the world doesn’t let me not be Cross my heart… The real truth… On God’s name, I swear it I am not the person you think I am, I’m a rock in that person’s shadow And soon to be a rock in your show Cross my heart… The real truth… I cross my heart and hope to die, These words are more of the real me Than I have ever let you actually see I cross my heart and swear on God’s name: This is the truth, and it will **** me.
This poem is part of a collection. Read it in full here: https://medium.com/@briannarduffin/the-end-of-all-the-endings-59796ac67ff7