i contain an immense ocean
and an almost bottomless pit
and a scream
and a life that doesn't fit.
there's the life i want - classes
and friends that come to visit
and holidays
and a date with candles lit.
the life i have is full of holes
and immense mountain summits
and crumbling ledges
and tumbling rivers of ****.
i contain the past and present
and more pain than i admit
and hate for life
and i cannot stop it.