I now and then have this feeling,
different from the overwhelming sadness,
the comforting joy and happiness from enjoyment.
It makes me forget my troubles or rather I feel that way when I do forget them,
about the happiness, sadness and injustice,
when I am no longer human and the beast within me vanishes.
Then sin exists no more and all is beauty,
I become a mere watcher and I observe with wonder the fullness of the creation,
which I cannot and might never fulfill to conceive.
Then with sadness, I am flooded as the feeling is swayed,
slowly but surely and I am back to being human, weak, emotive and conscious of that.
Then that feeling retreats deep within me, in parts unknown to my conscious self
now all I can do is live on and hope that feeling engulfs me once more.