I knew I liked you, I had for some time,

But this beating in my heart, this throbbing in my head, it's just so much more then that

Long ago I had a chance and blew it, that haunts me on a daily, hourly basis, sometimes not my mind won't allow even a minute go by without reminding me of my ***** up.

What if I could rectify my mistake,

Every day I wake up to wish you a good morning because I'm worried that maybe one day you won't respond

All I want is to love and to hold you, I'm a better me then I was, I'm not the same old person I used to be, I've changed for the better and I've come to just see you in such a way that it takes me hours to type a few sentences describing them

Sometimes it makes me want to scream in agony because of the restrictions life has put on me from being able to do as I wish, but these restrictions won't last forever

I just hope I can convince you that I'll be fine. It's just hard for me to get a clear answer when I'm asking what's beyond an impenetrable fog. I don't know what lies in my future, but I'll be ****** if I allow a future without you.

I know that when you tease me that you care and are joking, I love that sense of humor you can invoke, I love that sometimes you aren't sure of yourself because it gives me the chance to remind you that I'll be supporting you no matter what

My own thoughts are distracted with my constant feelings as to why I fell for you, I wonder about yours.