He realized he was meant for better let go of all the bad and negative. Things around him change didn't care for the toxic vibes put out by those he loved learned the hard way that he wasn't always going to be liked and can't please everyone.
He watched people be fake one way with him and a whole new person with someone else. He had their back and looked out for them. While they knocked him said bad things making everything personal. He knew their ***** secrets but he didn't say anything. He walked away if he spoke up he would be as low as them. He didn't like others reflecting him or trying to make him look bad. He can easily do it himself he didn't need their second hand hatred.
He lost friend people he valued you like but with his family there was already so many critics. He didn't need more. He wanted to be everyone's friend someone their turn to if they needed help but he decided to stay away from everyone's drama avoid all the gossip he never talked about anyone he always said it to their face. He thought they'd appreciate him for it but it got him hated. While others would bad mouth and be fake got loved and praised it never made sense. He was always over looked and never given a chance. He worked didn't brown nose. He worried and prayed his work would stand on its own. He learned on his own while others had guidance. He wanted to make it tired of looking over seeing the grass was green but he did keep trying to make his grass seem just as good maybe better.