Dec 2017
So I was having a conversation about dating with my coworkers. I'm the only one in the group single and no kids. I get nervous and embarrassed because I don't think all that is important. I did use to date A LOT but it got overwhelming. I met girls that wanted to get serious but when it came down to putting a label on it they bailed or dropped me once something better came along. I'm not one to beg or come in the way of others happiness. You meet cool people most stuck on an ex or not emotionally available which is fine. I can only do so much till I decide yeah this is not worth my time peace out. I've tried the online dating not my style you'll get a message or two but no one wants to go out which is fine.
I worry about materialistic girls since I've had my share funny how they want you to pay and they make more than you. I'm one for equal rights but I'm old school I'll pay if we decide to go out.
Today doesn't make sense so many people want to keep it casual but don't want to commit all the perks of a relationship but not be in one. It makes sense when you're young but once you get in your 30s things don't make sense anymore. Growing up in the 90s and being an adult in the 2000s are way different. I get anxiety thinking about it.
I was never the type who couldn't be alone and had to be in a relationship. I know people who cheat but still around why not end it, be with who ever or have kids making that an excuse to stay together my favorite is because of history so much time put in why walk away. If you are miserable why stay.
I've been around couples looking makes me stay away and less interested. I've been rejected hear NO even got a HELL NO. Misled and used but that's the vicious cycle of dating. Sometimes it's fun other times it's like wanting to jump over board because the boat is on fire and sinking. This captain is not going down with the ship.
This is the stuff I think about when I get asked why are you single. I also blame myself because I just want to be me and when I'm with someone they make suggestions sure I'm willing to try but that's no me or who I am why much I alter myself. Yes I know blah blah compromise but I don't expect anything I accept most flaw and all. Yes! I know I should start a blog but depends on my mood. Sometimes I have stuff to say other times I stare at the comment box asking myself what the hell do you want to say.
I have a hard time speaking my mind because people hate me for telling the truth. That's why I write. I'll regret saying something but if I write you can't get mad. Maybe you can if you read it but this is the internet if it's not a quick read you don't care anyway! Lol
I worry about materialistic girls since I've had my share funny how they want you to pay and they make more than you. I'm one for equal rights but I'm old school I'll pay if we decide to go out.
Today doesn't make sense so many people want to keep it casual but don't want to commit all the perks of a relationship but not be in one. It makes sense when you're young but once you get in your 30s things don't make sense anymore. Growing up in the 90s and being an adult in the 2000s are way different. I get anxiety thinking about it.
I was never the type who couldn't be alone and had to be in a relationship. I know people who cheat but still around why not end it, be with who ever or have kids making that an excuse to stay together my favorite is because of history so much time put in why walk away. If you are miserable why stay.
I've been around couples looking makes me stay away and less interested. I've been rejected hear NO even got a HELL NO. Misled and used but that's the vicious cycle of dating. Sometimes it's fun other times it's like wanting to jump over board because the boat is on fire and sinking. This captain is not going down with the ship.
This is the stuff I think about when I get asked why are you single. I also blame myself because I just want to be me and when I'm with someone they make suggestions sure I'm willing to try but that's no me or who I am why much I alter myself. Yes I know blah blah compromise but I don't expect anything I accept most flaw and all. Yes! I know I should start a blog but depends on my mood. Sometimes I have stuff to say other times I stare at the comment box asking myself what the hell do you want to say.
I have a hard time speaking my mind because people hate me for telling the truth. That's why I write. I'll regret saying something but if I write you can't get mad. Maybe you can if you read it but this is the internet if it's not a quick read you don't care anyway! Lol
