Four years ago you 1st messaged me.
asked me to listen to your music. i did.
i was impressed, with that i had told you i would always be your number on fan.
i was off and on with my ex i didn't see the signs that were pointing me to you
i ignored them. i kept you as a friend, i listed to your music all the time cause it calmed me. hearing your voice. and then one day me and my ex was broken up
we had always flirted with each other but we kinda leaned in to far before we realized what we were doing.
we were but to change the game for the both of us for the rest of out life. we were in love with other people trying to date one another.
i member our 1st date, i didn't know at the time but this was going to make me change my mind about everything i thought i planned.
you were all about your music and working and your ex.
i was all about me and school and my ex.
i broke it off when i was starting to love you and him at the same time
i didn't think it was fair and you had made it easier by yelling at me.
so i broke up with you and couple days later i was back with my ex and we were at an aqword stage in our relationship.
even when i was with my ex i couldn't get you off my mind... he made things easier by cheating and lying to me.
finally i was done with it august 30th
i was officially done with him.
days passed we started talking again
we had been talking off and on in between me dating him and thanksgiving rolled around
i was at my sisters and i told you and you came over.
we hung out and we did the one thing i had been wanting cents our 1st date
we had kissed but that kiss lead to other unexpected things
we had to say our good byes and you made me cry that night by saying you were leaving it broke me
i didn't want you to go
and now your staying,
December 17th you had spent the night with me for the 1st time
i felt everything
and again on December 18th as well
we talked about your music, and how you are losing some of your note books with raps about me in them
us living together...
laughing even while i was sitting on top of you naked
i didn't even remember going to sleep but waking up in your arms the warmth and security of it is bliss.
you will read this when i show you
you wont understand why i wrote it completely
i just know that it scares me
that i cant put my feelings in to words
how love doesn't even describe what i feel when i'm with you and when you leave me