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i've been meaning to do a tell all story
but the question is idk where to start
how on earth could i open up my heart
it's been chewed on and spit on
ripped apart
what is it that you wish to seek?
to find out about me
all the impleasant things
or perhaps the simplicity
the countless days i've cried myself to sleep
crying on the inside , looking out
the abundance i have of self doubt
how i cannot stand to be in large crowds
how i open my mouth
i try to speak but the words do not come out
i do not make a sound
i'm quiet as a mouse

cold sweat drips down my face
all eyes on my
this isn't my place
so i quickly hide in that dark corner of a space
or do you only want to see what you distinguish of me?
i lay on a smile so thick
you wouldn't believe
all the contemplation scrambling in my head
call me a forgery if you will
but you don't get to put me in my place
tell me to stand still
"if your feeling down take some advil
or should i get you a prescription perhaps a refill"
oh honey , please tell me another joke
the words slither down out of your mouth
do u hear yourself speak?
yet you do not choke
& that is only one part of me
you do not know