You left again
After just coming back
When you leave
A piece of my heart goes with you
But I cherish the pain
Of you leaving
I reminds me,
Reminds me that when you come back,
I’ll be whole again.
It reminds me that I am still alive
Still able to feel
Even with you gone
~~~
You coming home turns scarce
The amount of time you are here,
It’s almost nothing
I wonder
‘Will there be a time when you come no longer?’
I know it’s stupid to hope this be untrue
For
It is inevitable
Soon enough I will break
Break from the pain
The pain of being left behind
The pain of not seeing you again
The pain of not knowing
Not knowing if you will come back
~~~
When you come
I am at my happiest
A warm bundle of joy
But everything must end
Right?
And so it does
Like every other time you leave
I feel…
Empty
Void of emotion
Simply, blank
When the pain hits
I don’t show
I put on a smile
And walk around as if I’m okay
As if it doesn’t hurt
But it does
And I deal with it
For others shouldn’t have to be in my sour mood
They shouldn’t have to know my pain
They should be happy with life
While I try to live on
Try to remember that I have to eat
That I have to sleep
That I have to live
So I try,
And try,
And it works
For a few weeks I am happy again
Then you come back
And the cycle restarts…